The year has drifted by effortlessly and its been months since I wrote last. I'm embarrassed to admit I allowed life get in the way. I allowed procrastination to take over controlling, pigeonholing my interests and allowed the lesser important things..... distractions to become front and center. Slowly sapping my energy. What was distracting me?? My favourite shows when the fall lineup started were part of it. I had to tape them just so I could watch them in 15 minute increments. In the summer, well paying more attention to someone else's behaviour. That alone can be very time consuming. I did do a bit of my other writing and I did obtain a casual part-time job since my other job, that I love by the way, was less than busy. Trying to stay optimistic can be a full-time job in itself when attached to the one about watching with a suspicious eye that other person's behaviour. It's amazing how much time can be wasted thinking.... just thinking about said person's behaviour while I stare at a blank page.
But I did come to realize by the change of seasons that things needed to change in my own life. I know I said it before but quite frankly nothing changed. That old quote "the more things change the more they stay same" kept singing in my ear. Drastic change that's what I need. A little hard to do when I have two children. But other women have done it and continue to do it....so can I.
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