Faith

So it begins, a test in faith. Normally, I accept the life plan, we're all here to experience certain things and lessons to balance out karma from previous lives. We agreed to a specific amount of time and then we leave. Simple enough. I also accept that everything that crosses my path is doing so for a reason. But sometimes these lessons can be a bitch.
I ask for guidance and I usually get it or should I say I'm aware of the response from God, in one form or another. And then there are times when I believe God needs me to prove to myself my own strength. But I'm finding in certain situations I feel almost cornered and I really hate that feeling. I get impatient looking for answers and I get impatient waiting for answers. I know I ruined a good chance to see any kind of answer by adding impatience to the formula. It's very hard to stay calm and detached when I'm in the middle of the moment. I ask what do I need to do right now? And I hear "write" which I'm doing. Am I doing the right kind of writing? ......time will tell, I guess. It's not exactly the answer I was looking for but it's the one I got.
Keep pushing forward and keeping asking for guidance, while holding strong to the faith it/he/she is always listening.
I'm reading Julia Cameron's 'Faith and Will'. An excellent reminder of God working with us if we are willing to meet him halfway or we can fight him every step of the way and see how far we get.....Good read.