When someone does something good, applaud!! You will make two people happy.
-Samuel Goldwyn
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Friendship
What would life be like without my best buds?? Oh, absolutely unbearable!! I literally get teary eyed when I think of my friends..... my best friend's throughout my life, being able to get together without any distractions and catch up, talking, sharing secrets and laughing. Laughing with my girlfriends is the best medicine for me when life gets to be too much. Everything seems easier, even if only for a short time.
One of my best buds, I've known since high school. The guys we were dating at the time introduced us and we've been tight ever since while our significant others changed. We lean on each other through the good and especially the bad, I think that's the true test of a real friendship.... where are they when the times are touch??
It's like a slap to the face when someone I believed was a true blue friend turned on me, manipulating a situation like a director of a soap opera and then denying it when she got caught. It's hard to accept sometimes. A friend's betrayal can be equal to a spouse's betrayal. But then I remember the verse about people being in our lives for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. Accept the lesson and move on. Forgiveness is in there too but that's another entry for another time.
I was told once that "real" friends will go to the wall for you, get in every body's face so you don't have to. Basically fight your battles for you. I couldn't disagree more. Every battle in our lives needs to be fought by ourselves but our friends will be right next to us, holding our hands and holding us up if we need the strength, or courage.....or both.
I'm not a big fan of the big social networks but then I did find some old friends I lost contact with over the years. So I will give it points for that at least.
Do you have friends, close friends ...... best friends, special girls you can get silly with, embarrass yourself around and laugh with until your sides hurt. If you said "yes", say "thank you for being a part of my life".
For me, it's time to say it again so I'll call them right now. No procrastinating. That resolution thing is still a work in progress.
If you got time listen to "Waiting on a Friend" by the Rolling Stones.
I did.
One of my best buds, I've known since high school. The guys we were dating at the time introduced us and we've been tight ever since while our significant others changed. We lean on each other through the good and especially the bad, I think that's the true test of a real friendship.... where are they when the times are touch??
It's like a slap to the face when someone I believed was a true blue friend turned on me, manipulating a situation like a director of a soap opera and then denying it when she got caught. It's hard to accept sometimes. A friend's betrayal can be equal to a spouse's betrayal. But then I remember the verse about people being in our lives for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. Accept the lesson and move on. Forgiveness is in there too but that's another entry for another time.
I was told once that "real" friends will go to the wall for you, get in every body's face so you don't have to. Basically fight your battles for you. I couldn't disagree more. Every battle in our lives needs to be fought by ourselves but our friends will be right next to us, holding our hands and holding us up if we need the strength, or courage.....or both.
I'm not a big fan of the big social networks but then I did find some old friends I lost contact with over the years. So I will give it points for that at least.
Do you have friends, close friends ...... best friends, special girls you can get silly with, embarrass yourself around and laugh with until your sides hurt. If you said "yes", say "thank you for being a part of my life".
For me, it's time to say it again so I'll call them right now. No procrastinating. That resolution thing is still a work in progress.
If you got time listen to "Waiting on a Friend" by the Rolling Stones.
I did.
Monday, January 25, 2010
QUOTE
Happiness is a perfume you cannot pour on others without getting a few drops on yourself - Ralph Waldo Emerson
The Flip Side of Love
Okay, now I understand the whole love thing, beautiful, peaceful, pleasant, keeps a person warm at night and it helps the world go round, a perfect world and especially one with a few battle scars in it.
What I don't get is the whole hate thing. I don't understand the whole hate a complete race, religion, culture, gender, career, etc. to the point of wanting to wipe them off the face of the earth. It doesn't make any sense to me. Are people that high on themselves they believe their presence here on earth is more important than someone elses and they are willing to harass, torture and murder to prove it? I shake my head because the theory just boggles my mind. And then they suck God in to prove their point. God created ALL of us, every single person, creature, and plant on this earth and then someone comes along saying "I'm more important than you and if you don't agree with me, I need to get rid of you." How stupid is that!!!
But it all boils down to the fear of change. Why are so many afraid of moving forward?? We don't seem to mind all the technological advancements but some can NOT handle change in society as a people. A lot were ecstatic the United States elected, Barrack Obama the first African American president. My reaction was I couldn't figure out why it hadn't happened sooner.
Or the whole gay marriage controversy. Again I don't understand the problem. If they're in love and want to make a commitment who are we to stop them. How does a couple who want to get married you don't even know affect your life? It doesn't. Just like what you do doesn't affect their lives.
I was shocked during the latest Survivor to hear all the racial comments coming from a certain castaway. I won't say his name because he's already quite full of himself and he doesn't need anymore attention. It was disturbing that he sounded so justified and self-righteous while showing off an equally extreme case of male chauvinism.
I'm not sure who I should be more outraged at ..... him, the rest of the castaways who sat back not saying anything or the show for giving him a soapbox to promote racism.
All hatred is a crime against innocent souls and it's been going on for thousands of years. It is 2010 and there are so many of the world's population who hasn't evolved past aggressive controlling behaviour. Hatred leaves permanent imprints on the earth. And then we all comment with curiosity how Mother Nature seems to be turning on us with hurricanes, tornadoes and other extreme elements. Maybe we need to see what's staring us in the face..... all the wars and killing through the centuries is destroying our planet (besides pollution), we are helping to destroy our home.
What's that song I hear playing.... oh yeah "all you need is love.....all you need is love......all you need is love, love.....love is all you need"
Words to live by.
What I don't get is the whole hate thing. I don't understand the whole hate a complete race, religion, culture, gender, career, etc. to the point of wanting to wipe them off the face of the earth. It doesn't make any sense to me. Are people that high on themselves they believe their presence here on earth is more important than someone elses and they are willing to harass, torture and murder to prove it? I shake my head because the theory just boggles my mind. And then they suck God in to prove their point. God created ALL of us, every single person, creature, and plant on this earth and then someone comes along saying "I'm more important than you and if you don't agree with me, I need to get rid of you." How stupid is that!!!
But it all boils down to the fear of change. Why are so many afraid of moving forward?? We don't seem to mind all the technological advancements but some can NOT handle change in society as a people. A lot were ecstatic the United States elected, Barrack Obama the first African American president. My reaction was I couldn't figure out why it hadn't happened sooner.
Or the whole gay marriage controversy. Again I don't understand the problem. If they're in love and want to make a commitment who are we to stop them. How does a couple who want to get married you don't even know affect your life? It doesn't. Just like what you do doesn't affect their lives.
I was shocked during the latest Survivor to hear all the racial comments coming from a certain castaway. I won't say his name because he's already quite full of himself and he doesn't need anymore attention. It was disturbing that he sounded so justified and self-righteous while showing off an equally extreme case of male chauvinism.
I'm not sure who I should be more outraged at ..... him, the rest of the castaways who sat back not saying anything or the show for giving him a soapbox to promote racism.
All hatred is a crime against innocent souls and it's been going on for thousands of years. It is 2010 and there are so many of the world's population who hasn't evolved past aggressive controlling behaviour. Hatred leaves permanent imprints on the earth. And then we all comment with curiosity how Mother Nature seems to be turning on us with hurricanes, tornadoes and other extreme elements. Maybe we need to see what's staring us in the face..... all the wars and killing through the centuries is destroying our planet (besides pollution), we are helping to destroy our home.
What's that song I hear playing.... oh yeah "all you need is love.....all you need is love......all you need is love, love.....love is all you need"
Words to live by.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Love
Ahhhh love...... a many splendor ed thing. Sometimes. When it works in our favour, that is. There are plenty of famous couples throughout history, real and fictional, who it didn't work out for them.....Romeo and Juliet, Scarlett and Rhett, Prince Charles and Lady Diana, etc.
Love is supposed to be the most important thing in our lives, the most important thing in the world.... to love each other, to find that special someone, the infamous soul mate. It's a wonderful emotion falling in love, quite intoxicating and then being in that comfortable stage of love. Pure bliss being part of a connection. And then there are all the great mushy movies, romance novels and songs in the name of love. I have my favourites in every category. All three getting me through my teenage years. Who hasn't clung to the radio listening to a love soaked mournful song about love gone wrong and its beautiful misery.
But it isn't beautiful misery when you are the one blindsided by the unspeakable pain that only loss can bring. Loss isn't funny and it isn't romantic. Why is it for some love is taken from them? Is it the Universe reminding us, we don't know what we got until its gone? To appreciate the precious people in our lives?
And then there's the souls clinging to a relationship no matter how bad, claiming its love but it's really the fear of being alone. Some just want to be with someone, anyone so long as they're not alone. Those are the people who NEED to be alone because they possess a serious fear. And it's not the fear of being alone. It's the fear of being with themselves and only themselves.
I was there a few years ago (being in a very close relationship I mean) and I didn't realize how dependent on it I was until the death of my husband forced me to be alone. In the midst of my grief, I found me. And that is no sappy cliche. It's the God's honest truth. I know what I want and most importantly what I DON'T want and what I won't put up with.... most days.
There was a point I thought I got the whole lesson thing figured out and then I got sucker punched by my own cockiness. I was forced to admit that when it comes to love I didn't learn as much as I thought.
But no matter what, I will always believe in 'happily ever after' even if I need to wait for mine.
Love is supposed to be the most important thing in our lives, the most important thing in the world.... to love each other, to find that special someone, the infamous soul mate. It's a wonderful emotion falling in love, quite intoxicating and then being in that comfortable stage of love. Pure bliss being part of a connection. And then there are all the great mushy movies, romance novels and songs in the name of love. I have my favourites in every category. All three getting me through my teenage years. Who hasn't clung to the radio listening to a love soaked mournful song about love gone wrong and its beautiful misery.
But it isn't beautiful misery when you are the one blindsided by the unspeakable pain that only loss can bring. Loss isn't funny and it isn't romantic. Why is it for some love is taken from them? Is it the Universe reminding us, we don't know what we got until its gone? To appreciate the precious people in our lives?
And then there's the souls clinging to a relationship no matter how bad, claiming its love but it's really the fear of being alone. Some just want to be with someone, anyone so long as they're not alone. Those are the people who NEED to be alone because they possess a serious fear. And it's not the fear of being alone. It's the fear of being with themselves and only themselves.
I was there a few years ago (being in a very close relationship I mean) and I didn't realize how dependent on it I was until the death of my husband forced me to be alone. In the midst of my grief, I found me. And that is no sappy cliche. It's the God's honest truth. I know what I want and most importantly what I DON'T want and what I won't put up with.... most days.
There was a point I thought I got the whole lesson thing figured out and then I got sucker punched by my own cockiness. I was forced to admit that when it comes to love I didn't learn as much as I thought.
But no matter what, I will always believe in 'happily ever after' even if I need to wait for mine.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
More...... Please?!
Have you ever asked yourself "Is there more than this?". I did. I remember it was January 1996 after a bad breakup. I thought is this it? Nothing but uncertainty and loss. One day shortly after the breakup, I happened across a poem. It read about how nothing is random, the one who has the control in the Universe has a plan for everyone. It was such a simple poem but I experienced my first conscious "AHA" moment.
So back to the question is there more? It isn't about the things, the possessions, the bling. There's no fulfillment there. There will be times I go shopping, an eagerness in me to buy this, that, another one of that and the other thing even though I don't really NEED any of it. Oh yes, I WANT it but once I get home and rifle through the bags, that feeling of regret settles in. Why did I waste $100 on all of this. Now I know $100 doesn't sound like much to some and to others it might feel like a small fortune so replace the $100 with an amount you can relate to that will start the guilt train down the track in your brain. You know what I'm talking about ..... the broken record of put-downs playing in a person's head when you have a vulnerable moment.
Man, don't you just love that depressing one hit wonder? You just can't get it out of your head. At least, I know it's a challenge for me but those moments are getting fewer and farther between.
I want to put something new on the turntable and I'm working on it. Whenever I hear the old broken record start playing I quickly interrupt with new positive affirmations and I repeat them at least 20 times, if not more.
I'm determined to create a new reality for myself. It's been a constant work in progress but everyday for the last 14 years I'm constantly transforming my world and every so often pushing myself to step out of the box.
That fear of change can immobilize a person. I never realized until the moment I got the chance to change my life by doing the unthinkable (in a woman's eyes) and calling up my future husband to ask him out on a date. I was so scared staring at that phone, I burst into tears. So I didn't end up calling him the first night. But I did convince myself on the second night.
Another time was going back to school. I reminded myself that I wanted something better for myself, something "more" that feeling of fulfillment, not to be stuck where I was at that point in my life. Because I felt stuck, literally. It was time to move on. The only one holding myself back was me. I tuned out the naysayers a while before that so don't listen to them.
You never know what you got in store for yourself unless you give yourself a fighting chance. So go for it! What's your more??
So back to the question is there more? It isn't about the things, the possessions, the bling. There's no fulfillment there. There will be times I go shopping, an eagerness in me to buy this, that, another one of that and the other thing even though I don't really NEED any of it. Oh yes, I WANT it but once I get home and rifle through the bags, that feeling of regret settles in. Why did I waste $100 on all of this. Now I know $100 doesn't sound like much to some and to others it might feel like a small fortune so replace the $100 with an amount you can relate to that will start the guilt train down the track in your brain. You know what I'm talking about ..... the broken record of put-downs playing in a person's head when you have a vulnerable moment.
Man, don't you just love that depressing one hit wonder? You just can't get it out of your head. At least, I know it's a challenge for me but those moments are getting fewer and farther between.
I want to put something new on the turntable and I'm working on it. Whenever I hear the old broken record start playing I quickly interrupt with new positive affirmations and I repeat them at least 20 times, if not more.
I'm determined to create a new reality for myself. It's been a constant work in progress but everyday for the last 14 years I'm constantly transforming my world and every so often pushing myself to step out of the box.
That fear of change can immobilize a person. I never realized until the moment I got the chance to change my life by doing the unthinkable (in a woman's eyes) and calling up my future husband to ask him out on a date. I was so scared staring at that phone, I burst into tears. So I didn't end up calling him the first night. But I did convince myself on the second night.
Another time was going back to school. I reminded myself that I wanted something better for myself, something "more" that feeling of fulfillment, not to be stuck where I was at that point in my life. Because I felt stuck, literally. It was time to move on. The only one holding myself back was me. I tuned out the naysayers a while before that so don't listen to them.
You never know what you got in store for yourself unless you give yourself a fighting chance. So go for it! What's your more??
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
QUOTE
Sometimes the most urgent and vital thing you can possibly do is take a complete rest - Ashleigh Brilliant
Messages....
It doesn't matter what anybody else thinks because you're the one living your life. Friends, family, even complete strangers on reality shows have opinions and that's great. Those opinions suit them for their life. Does their 2 cents apply to your life? Does it feel right? Sometimes we want advice so badly we'll take whatever we can get.
I believe the Universe is always sending us messages if we're paying attention but the other stuff is just junk. We need to be able to decipher and filter out the good, important stuff, the gold nuggets of information from the rest of the garbage. But you need to go back to the question, "does it feel right?". The most common answer is "I'm not sure.". The best way to be positive is stop...... literally stop unless of course you're driving. If you're driving, turn down the radio. Now take a deep breath, a breath so deep you inhale right down to your toes. Ask yourself the question again. Now pay attention to your body's reactions. How did your body react? Good feeling or bad feeling. If you're still not sure, keep trying. Practice makes perfect.
Also notice your body's reactions to the people around you. Do you feel drained or uplifted? Some so-called friends and family can be toxic to your spirit if you do not protect yourself. I wish I could avoid every person who sucks the energy out of me like an emotional vampire but unfortunately, I accepted that isn't always possible.
I know messages are everywhere but I don't always notice them. Like lately, I'm dropping things or things are falling down around me. The first part is I'm not grasping on to something. Not sure what though. I don't know exactly what the second one means. Maybe my reality is crumbling down around me. Pretty morbid.
Or then there is constantly asking a question and not noticing a reply. If there is a reply, it's not always obvious. And if you're like me, you need it obvious. If you really need an answer and there isn't one appearing, do everything to avoid the desperation zone. Distract yourself in any way possible which makes it an excellent excuse to work on that hobby. If you don't have one..... find one. All of it is important to staying balanced in the meantime.
And then there are dreams...... Dreams are another way to receive important answers to questions. They're not as weird as they seem at first glance. It's all about symbolism.
But the point is, life is not random. There is a reason for everything so start figuring out why you're on the path in front of you.
I believe the Universe is always sending us messages if we're paying attention but the other stuff is just junk. We need to be able to decipher and filter out the good, important stuff, the gold nuggets of information from the rest of the garbage. But you need to go back to the question, "does it feel right?". The most common answer is "I'm not sure.". The best way to be positive is stop...... literally stop unless of course you're driving. If you're driving, turn down the radio. Now take a deep breath, a breath so deep you inhale right down to your toes. Ask yourself the question again. Now pay attention to your body's reactions. How did your body react? Good feeling or bad feeling. If you're still not sure, keep trying. Practice makes perfect.
Also notice your body's reactions to the people around you. Do you feel drained or uplifted? Some so-called friends and family can be toxic to your spirit if you do not protect yourself. I wish I could avoid every person who sucks the energy out of me like an emotional vampire but unfortunately, I accepted that isn't always possible.
I know messages are everywhere but I don't always notice them. Like lately, I'm dropping things or things are falling down around me. The first part is I'm not grasping on to something. Not sure what though. I don't know exactly what the second one means. Maybe my reality is crumbling down around me. Pretty morbid.
Or then there is constantly asking a question and not noticing a reply. If there is a reply, it's not always obvious. And if you're like me, you need it obvious. If you really need an answer and there isn't one appearing, do everything to avoid the desperation zone. Distract yourself in any way possible which makes it an excellent excuse to work on that hobby. If you don't have one..... find one. All of it is important to staying balanced in the meantime.
And then there are dreams...... Dreams are another way to receive important answers to questions. They're not as weird as they seem at first glance. It's all about symbolism.
But the point is, life is not random. There is a reason for everything so start figuring out why you're on the path in front of you.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
QUOTE
As human beings, our greatness lies not so much in being able to remake the world....
as in being able to remake ourselves - Mahatma Gandhi
as in being able to remake ourselves - Mahatma Gandhi
Impressions
I was told different times in the past that I'm very complicated. My reply is I'm like an open book, you just have to want to take the time to read the pages between the covers. I don't think that's too much to ask. Each person is more than what you see on the surface. They're multi-layered underneath. That's obvious. Every person possesses hopes and dreams...... what makes them tick. Everyone.
I noticed a few years ago and still do from time to time whenever I meet someone new they will ask "What do you do?" or "Where do you work?".
Me. I didn't work a high paying job which for some is equivalent to interesting, powerful......important. I loved what I did then and I love what I do now. There were a few eyebrows raised at the time to see me who was so young given so much responsibility. But really who cares. I would much rather know if you love how you live everyday. What stirs your soul? What are you curious about? What do you love? Besides the closet full of clothes, the big screen TV or the latest gadget. Face it at the end of the day, those things don't fill you up.
There are some guys I know who are friends since high school. Everytime they get together they end up trying to out brag one another. I'm not kidding. Everytime. I call it a pissing match. It's pretty sad.
I don't try to impress people anymore. I guess it wasn't so much impress as it was people pleasing. Either way, it's not worth it. I grew up watching my parents bend over backwards to keep relationships among my extended family pleasant while said family proceeded to be manipulative and controlling. It took many years but they are sort of grown out of it. There are moments where they slip back into old patterns but otherwise, all is well.
I dated a boy through high school who possessed the same adage as my parents "Don't rock the boat" or "Don't cause waves". When I finally said enough is enough, he decided to move on. Oh well.
I realized through a lot of lessons there is no pleasing some people no matter how hard I try. So be it. Lesson accepted.
I am my biggest critic and I am my biggest supporter. I know who I am but everyday I am discovering a little bit more about myself and about the Universe. And I remind myself to only listen to about 10% of what I hear through the media and the government. Because they only tell you what they think you should know, not necessarily the truth.
That's not being complicated. Is it?
I noticed a few years ago and still do from time to time whenever I meet someone new they will ask "What do you do?" or "Where do you work?".
Me. I didn't work a high paying job which for some is equivalent to interesting, powerful......important. I loved what I did then and I love what I do now. There were a few eyebrows raised at the time to see me who was so young given so much responsibility. But really who cares. I would much rather know if you love how you live everyday. What stirs your soul? What are you curious about? What do you love? Besides the closet full of clothes, the big screen TV or the latest gadget. Face it at the end of the day, those things don't fill you up.
There are some guys I know who are friends since high school. Everytime they get together they end up trying to out brag one another. I'm not kidding. Everytime. I call it a pissing match. It's pretty sad.
I don't try to impress people anymore. I guess it wasn't so much impress as it was people pleasing. Either way, it's not worth it. I grew up watching my parents bend over backwards to keep relationships among my extended family pleasant while said family proceeded to be manipulative and controlling. It took many years but they are sort of grown out of it. There are moments where they slip back into old patterns but otherwise, all is well.
I dated a boy through high school who possessed the same adage as my parents "Don't rock the boat" or "Don't cause waves". When I finally said enough is enough, he decided to move on. Oh well.
I realized through a lot of lessons there is no pleasing some people no matter how hard I try. So be it. Lesson accepted.
I am my biggest critic and I am my biggest supporter. I know who I am but everyday I am discovering a little bit more about myself and about the Universe. And I remind myself to only listen to about 10% of what I hear through the media and the government. Because they only tell you what they think you should know, not necessarily the truth.
That's not being complicated. Is it?
Monday, January 4, 2010
Try Being Nice
I did it. I did get the Christmas decorations put away. It took only about two hours but the temptation to avoid the inevitable.... oh....probably a couple of days. Baby steps. I'm moving in baby steps.
Life gets back to normal now, whatever that may be.
The holidays are behind us. It's only been 10 days since Christmas and I felt like it was wham-bam-thank-you-ma'am-see-you-all-again-next-year. I keep wanting to look behind me and say "wait a minute, what happened, where'd you go?" I mean I'm still listening to Christmas music in the car. Ok, today I didn't.
I was disappointed on the 28th. I stopped to get a much needed fill up on gas. There was a lady ahead of me in line to pay. When she was leaving she said "Merry Christmas" to the attendant. The attendant waited, of course, until the lady was out of earshot when she grumbled "Christmas is over with". I was quite taken aback by the criticism. Come on. Really. What's the big deal? I guess I'm naive but I truly don't believe there's anything wrong with the holiday wishes. I could see if New Years was long over but at that point it hadn't happened yet. As far as I'm concerned Christmas involves the whole month of December. The media and retailers have no problem starting their advertising overload at 12:01 a.m. on November 1st. So I can understand if some get testy (that's where the deep breath comes in) but there's no reason for out right bitchiness.
I figure everybody needs an excuse to extend a little goodwill. Yes, you read right.....an excuse. Nobody deserves getting snipped at for extending well wishes. There's nothing wrong with being nice. So some people need to take the proverbial chill pill and stop pissing in everybody else's corn flakes. The day will be a lot more warmer and brighter than the -20 with the wind chill we experience at this time of year.
Life gets back to normal now, whatever that may be.
The holidays are behind us. It's only been 10 days since Christmas and I felt like it was wham-bam-thank-you-ma'am-see-you-all-again-next-year. I keep wanting to look behind me and say "wait a minute, what happened, where'd you go?" I mean I'm still listening to Christmas music in the car. Ok, today I didn't.
I was disappointed on the 28th. I stopped to get a much needed fill up on gas. There was a lady ahead of me in line to pay. When she was leaving she said "Merry Christmas" to the attendant. The attendant waited, of course, until the lady was out of earshot when she grumbled "Christmas is over with". I was quite taken aback by the criticism. Come on. Really. What's the big deal? I guess I'm naive but I truly don't believe there's anything wrong with the holiday wishes. I could see if New Years was long over but at that point it hadn't happened yet. As far as I'm concerned Christmas involves the whole month of December. The media and retailers have no problem starting their advertising overload at 12:01 a.m. on November 1st. So I can understand if some get testy (that's where the deep breath comes in) but there's no reason for out right bitchiness.
I figure everybody needs an excuse to extend a little goodwill. Yes, you read right.....an excuse. Nobody deserves getting snipped at for extending well wishes. There's nothing wrong with being nice. So some people need to take the proverbial chill pill and stop pissing in everybody else's corn flakes. The day will be a lot more warmer and brighter than the -20 with the wind chill we experience at this time of year.
Saturday, January 2, 2010
What's the Resolution this year??
Well we're all just 2 days into the New Year 2010. And I've been feeling a strong energy of change for the last week. So I'm anticipating all the possibilities the new year has in store for me and the world around us.
I keep thinking about making some resolutions. Sure I've made plenty of them in the past ....and broke them within a few weeks, you know the unrealistic kind. And then there were the years I didn't bother to make any at all. What was the point since I kept breaking them anyways.
My real problem is procrastination, getting started on something, some idea with enthusiasm and then when it wanes slightly that's when I get distracted or put it off (for awhile). It's not hard when two children are constantly wanting my attention or something conveniently catches my attention like a new book (love to read), a new movie comes out or one of my hobbies (I mentioned before) demands more of my attention or work related events come up. There are so many things. The list is long. I could keep going on and on. But the point is I need to stay focused.
I always believed every other woman on the face of the earth was way more organized than me. And then I realized, after watching an episode of Oprah, how unrealistic my expectations were and even if there were women more organized then me it was because their "to do" lists were so long they didn't give themselves time to think. I certainly refuse to be like that stereotype. We're supposed to be enjoying life not be on the go constantly that we barely give ourselves time to breathe.
Maybe that's why I procrastinate. My world gets too busy and that's my spirits way of letting me know it's time for me to take a break so I don't burn myself out.
Maybe that's why there's the ones hooked on coffee, food, alcohol, sex, drugs, etc.. They can't cope with the reality they created for themselves so they do what they can to avoid reality altogether.
So I guess the resolution this year is going to be stop procrastinating. Sounds too tough off the start....going cold turkey. So how about I will make a conscious effort to not procrastinate nearly as much as I used to.....
Now I'm going to do what I'm trying to avoid.....putting away the Christmas decorations. One point for resolutions.
I keep thinking about making some resolutions. Sure I've made plenty of them in the past ....and broke them within a few weeks, you know the unrealistic kind. And then there were the years I didn't bother to make any at all. What was the point since I kept breaking them anyways.
My real problem is procrastination, getting started on something, some idea with enthusiasm and then when it wanes slightly that's when I get distracted or put it off (for awhile). It's not hard when two children are constantly wanting my attention or something conveniently catches my attention like a new book (love to read), a new movie comes out or one of my hobbies (I mentioned before) demands more of my attention or work related events come up. There are so many things. The list is long. I could keep going on and on. But the point is I need to stay focused.
I always believed every other woman on the face of the earth was way more organized than me. And then I realized, after watching an episode of Oprah, how unrealistic my expectations were and even if there were women more organized then me it was because their "to do" lists were so long they didn't give themselves time to think. I certainly refuse to be like that stereotype. We're supposed to be enjoying life not be on the go constantly that we barely give ourselves time to breathe.
Maybe that's why I procrastinate. My world gets too busy and that's my spirits way of letting me know it's time for me to take a break so I don't burn myself out.
Maybe that's why there's the ones hooked on coffee, food, alcohol, sex, drugs, etc.. They can't cope with the reality they created for themselves so they do what they can to avoid reality altogether.
So I guess the resolution this year is going to be stop procrastinating. Sounds too tough off the start....going cold turkey. So how about I will make a conscious effort to not procrastinate nearly as much as I used to.....
Now I'm going to do what I'm trying to avoid.....putting away the Christmas decorations. One point for resolutions.
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