Impressions

I was told different times in the past that I'm very complicated. My reply is I'm like an open book, you just have to want to take the time to read the pages between the covers. I don't think that's too much to ask. Each person is more than what you see on the surface. They're multi-layered underneath. That's obvious. Every person possesses hopes and dreams...... what makes them tick. Everyone.
I noticed a few years ago and still do from time to time whenever I meet someone new they will ask "What do you do?" or "Where do you work?".
Me. I didn't work a high paying job which for some is equivalent to interesting, powerful......important. I loved what I did then and I love what I do now. There were a few eyebrows raised at the time to see me who was so young given so much responsibility. But really who cares. I would much rather know if you love how you live everyday. What stirs your soul? What are you curious about? What do you love? Besides the closet full of clothes, the big screen TV or the latest gadget. Face it at the end of the day, those things don't fill you up.
There are some guys I know who are friends since high school. Everytime they get together they end up trying to out brag one another. I'm not kidding. Everytime. I call it a pissing match. It's pretty sad.
I don't try to impress people anymore. I guess it wasn't so much impress as it was people pleasing. Either way, it's not worth it. I grew up watching my parents bend over backwards to keep relationships among my extended family pleasant while said family proceeded to be manipulative and controlling. It took many years but they are sort of grown out of it. There are moments where they slip back into old patterns but otherwise, all is well.
I dated a boy through high school who possessed the same adage as my parents "Don't rock the boat" or "Don't cause waves". When I finally said enough is enough, he decided to move on. Oh well.
I realized through a lot of lessons there is no pleasing some people no matter how hard I try. So be it. Lesson accepted.
I am my biggest critic and I am my biggest supporter. I know who I am but everyday I am discovering a little bit more about myself and about the Universe. And I remind myself to only listen to about 10% of what I hear through the media and the government. Because they only tell you what they think you should know, not necessarily the truth.
That's not being complicated. Is it?