Love

Ahhhh love...... a many splendor ed thing. Sometimes. When it works in our favour, that is. There are plenty of famous couples throughout history, real and fictional, who it didn't work out for them.....Romeo and Juliet, Scarlett and Rhett, Prince Charles and Lady Diana, etc.
Love is supposed to be the most important thing in our lives, the most important thing in the world.... to love each other, to find that special someone, the infamous soul mate. It's a wonderful emotion falling in love, quite intoxicating and then being in that comfortable stage of love. Pure bliss being part of a connection. And then there are all the great mushy movies, romance novels and songs in the name of love. I have my favourites in every category. All three getting me through my teenage years. Who hasn't clung to the radio listening to a love soaked mournful song about love gone wrong and its beautiful misery.
But it isn't beautiful misery when you are the one blindsided by the unspeakable pain that only loss can bring. Loss isn't funny and it isn't romantic. Why is it for some love is taken from them? Is it the Universe reminding us, we don't know what we got until its gone? To appreciate the precious people in our lives?
And then there's the souls clinging to a relationship no matter how bad, claiming its love but it's really the fear of being alone. Some just want to be with someone, anyone so long as they're not alone. Those are the people who NEED to be alone because they possess a serious fear. And it's not the fear of being alone. It's the fear of being with themselves and only themselves.
I was there a few years ago (being in a very close relationship I mean) and I didn't realize how dependent on it I was until the death of my husband forced me to be alone. In the midst of my grief, I found me. And that is no sappy cliche. It's the God's honest truth. I know what I want and most importantly what I DON'T want and what I won't put up with.... most days.
There was a point I thought I got the whole lesson thing figured out and then I got sucker punched by my own cockiness. I was forced to admit that when it comes to love I didn't learn as much as I thought.
But no matter what, I will always believe in 'happily ever after' even if I need to wait for mine.