Summer is just about here, knocking on my door, reminding me that 2010 is well underway and almost at the halfway mark which sends me into a mild panic.
I'm trying to push my way along, working, hoping, praying my plans will become real and then I get reminders to slow down, be more patient. How much more patience do I need when challenge after challenge literally shoves its presence into my life. I say enough already. Help me to see the path. There is so much energy around me. It feels electric but I'm stuck, spinning my wheels while I go even deeper into the mud. Interruptions, constant interruptions. Look how much time has passed since my last entry again because I've got other writing projects on the go, a release of sorts, and a business that involves helping people to destress themselves. For some reluctantly. While reading more about spirituality, searching for signs, direction, receiving some and then they stop, leaving the buildup of exhilaration to drop to the floor and shatter like glass.
Moving forward is a must!!! No more excuses!!! No more spinning wheels in the mud!!! No more feeling cornered and trapped!!! From now on each step forward is a step to new possibilities....a new life.
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Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Saturday, January 2, 2010
What's the Resolution this year??
Well we're all just 2 days into the New Year 2010. And I've been feeling a strong energy of change for the last week. So I'm anticipating all the possibilities the new year has in store for me and the world around us.
I keep thinking about making some resolutions. Sure I've made plenty of them in the past ....and broke them within a few weeks, you know the unrealistic kind. And then there were the years I didn't bother to make any at all. What was the point since I kept breaking them anyways.
My real problem is procrastination, getting started on something, some idea with enthusiasm and then when it wanes slightly that's when I get distracted or put it off (for awhile). It's not hard when two children are constantly wanting my attention or something conveniently catches my attention like a new book (love to read), a new movie comes out or one of my hobbies (I mentioned before) demands more of my attention or work related events come up. There are so many things. The list is long. I could keep going on and on. But the point is I need to stay focused.
I always believed every other woman on the face of the earth was way more organized than me. And then I realized, after watching an episode of Oprah, how unrealistic my expectations were and even if there were women more organized then me it was because their "to do" lists were so long they didn't give themselves time to think. I certainly refuse to be like that stereotype. We're supposed to be enjoying life not be on the go constantly that we barely give ourselves time to breathe.
Maybe that's why I procrastinate. My world gets too busy and that's my spirits way of letting me know it's time for me to take a break so I don't burn myself out.
Maybe that's why there's the ones hooked on coffee, food, alcohol, sex, drugs, etc.. They can't cope with the reality they created for themselves so they do what they can to avoid reality altogether.
So I guess the resolution this year is going to be stop procrastinating. Sounds too tough off the start....going cold turkey. So how about I will make a conscious effort to not procrastinate nearly as much as I used to.....
Now I'm going to do what I'm trying to avoid.....putting away the Christmas decorations. One point for resolutions.
I keep thinking about making some resolutions. Sure I've made plenty of them in the past ....and broke them within a few weeks, you know the unrealistic kind. And then there were the years I didn't bother to make any at all. What was the point since I kept breaking them anyways.
My real problem is procrastination, getting started on something, some idea with enthusiasm and then when it wanes slightly that's when I get distracted or put it off (for awhile). It's not hard when two children are constantly wanting my attention or something conveniently catches my attention like a new book (love to read), a new movie comes out or one of my hobbies (I mentioned before) demands more of my attention or work related events come up. There are so many things. The list is long. I could keep going on and on. But the point is I need to stay focused.
I always believed every other woman on the face of the earth was way more organized than me. And then I realized, after watching an episode of Oprah, how unrealistic my expectations were and even if there were women more organized then me it was because their "to do" lists were so long they didn't give themselves time to think. I certainly refuse to be like that stereotype. We're supposed to be enjoying life not be on the go constantly that we barely give ourselves time to breathe.
Maybe that's why I procrastinate. My world gets too busy and that's my spirits way of letting me know it's time for me to take a break so I don't burn myself out.
Maybe that's why there's the ones hooked on coffee, food, alcohol, sex, drugs, etc.. They can't cope with the reality they created for themselves so they do what they can to avoid reality altogether.
So I guess the resolution this year is going to be stop procrastinating. Sounds too tough off the start....going cold turkey. So how about I will make a conscious effort to not procrastinate nearly as much as I used to.....
Now I'm going to do what I'm trying to avoid.....putting away the Christmas decorations. One point for resolutions.
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