Distraction.....

Distraction is a simple word but can be a flashing neon sign in front of me following me around for the past four to six weeks and a ditch leading to the rut of procrastination. The thought seems odd since Spring has arrived and normally Spring brings rejuvenation, new ideas, fresh new beginnings. But it doesn't matter .... completely. There's always something; children, housework, spouse, etc. needing neverending attention. Housework can wait, I've done it in the past but only for so long. Children need attention, that's a given but sometimes they are so involved in playing they forget about me for a few minutes. Those few minutes are seized to slip a bit of writing, reading, thinking .....me time in. I tape all my favourite prime time television programs so I won't miss any but I need to find time to watch them since eventually I run out of tapes (modern technology only goes so far with me, I'm not into downloading every bloody thing in creation onto my computer). I'm finding out how much a spouse can actually be like having a third child without the labour pains. Making a mess equal to the children's without any attempt to clean it up. OH BROTHER!!

So procrastination slithered back into control and I allowed it, almost welcoming it. That's why my entries have been stagnant. I've been focusing more on my other writing endeavours in my scraps of spare time. There are other interests...... passions I want to focus on as well. I need to get back on track. Especially when the exercising did get forgotten. It's been on my mind A LOT the past few days so I need to give myself that nudge to do it again. It's so easy to get caught up in the rest of the chaos called life. But the constant reminder to keep life in balance is needed ..... it's mandatory.

I am mandatory.

What's the Resolution this year??

Well we're all just 2 days into the New Year 2010. And I've been feeling a strong energy of change for the last week. So I'm anticipating all the possibilities the new year has in store for me and the world around us.
I keep thinking about making some resolutions. Sure I've made plenty of them in the past ....and broke them within a few weeks, you know the unrealistic kind. And then there were the years I didn't bother to make any at all. What was the point since I kept breaking them anyways.
My real problem is procrastination, getting started on something, some idea with enthusiasm and then when it wanes slightly that's when I get distracted or put it off (for awhile). It's not hard when two children are constantly wanting my attention or something conveniently catches my attention like a new book (love to read), a new movie comes out or one of my hobbies (I mentioned before) demands more of my attention or work related events come up. There are so many things. The list is long. I could keep going on and on. But the point is I need to stay focused.
I always believed every other woman on the face of the earth was way more organized than me. And then I realized, after watching an episode of Oprah, how unrealistic my expectations were and even if there were women more organized then me it was because their "to do" lists were so long they didn't give themselves time to think. I certainly refuse to be like that stereotype. We're supposed to be enjoying life not be on the go constantly that we barely give ourselves time to breathe.
Maybe that's why I procrastinate. My world gets too busy and that's my spirits way of letting me know it's time for me to take a break so I don't burn myself out.
Maybe that's why there's the ones hooked on coffee, food, alcohol, sex, drugs, etc.. They can't cope with the reality they created for themselves so they do what they can to avoid reality altogether.
So I guess the resolution this year is going to be stop procrastinating. Sounds too tough off the start....going cold turkey. So how about I will make a conscious effort to not procrastinate nearly as much as I used to.....
Now I'm going to do what I'm trying to avoid.....putting away the Christmas decorations. One point for resolutions.